can't believe its been so long since I last updated.The past two weeks has been filled with drama, work sleepless nights, alcohol, naked people, casino's titty bars and strange sex. Interested? I wish I had kept up with updating the whole time, but I had already been going without anysleep.

I feel so bad, cuz even tho my husband is now really trying I feel like more than ever he's just got to go...

I've made friends with this guy at work.

We have mutual friends.

He's tall dark, kinda lanky longer hair, stoner/hippy boy type. He seems like this sweet but loner guy. He has soft dark hair and these ice blues eyes, and if you make the mistake of looking into them, you get lost in a dark sullen world he's created. i never paid much atteniton to him, (cuz he's not my type) but then he came into my work a few times and I started to notice his stoic beauty. he never says to much, and when he does his speech has this nervous rythym to it. He just kinda laughs this goofey laugh as if its a cover up of something deeper. somehow, no matter who I hang out with, he gets invited a long.

Well, a mutual friend (my girl Brenda) of ours had just broke up with her fiance, so we both thought it would be a good idea to take her out. Lease and I took her gambling, but we only had fun for an hour or so, so we then went to the strip bar. The crazy thing was, her ex was there with all his friends. It seemed a bit awkward at first especially since he swore we were stalking him. This guy called Jackass kept grabiing at me, but I made him loose like two pool games he had money on so it was all good. But we lived the night up, with boobs in our face, make out sessions and lots of booze...

We did have a bunch of fun the other night with Jon and Tiff. Thats a whole story in itself too. Anyways tiff is the type of person you just love cuz shes so funny-but she doesnt try to be, you can't help but laugh AT her. She was so drunk she forward rolled the whole way down my steps. I though she was dead-she just started laughing and apoplogizing to me for falling down my steps! She's the sweetest, she never wants anyone mad at her, and she hardly ever gets mad. You don't have toworry about her being shady or deceitful. Later that night after giving her some of our Kahlua she looked at me with the most serious look on her face an said, "hey nik, you've got the best Henessey I've ever had it taste just like chocolate!"hahahahahahaha shes my girl! What was really funny was when "lease" and I was talkin in the living room, and heard Tiff and Jon having sex in my bar room. we wanted to gibble but we were wating on them. after a few minutes we heard pool balls falling into the pockets of my pool table. So I told Lease that they must be finished and shooting pool. I started walking into the bar room and all I saw was jons' skinny legs on my pool table and I took off running! I can't believe they were fuckin on my table! hahah we all had a big laugh about it later.

I'm sure there's more I'm leaving out but i"ll be back later...

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