i'm startin to wonder if I should keep this diary up. My life is a ess and this thing isn't helping. I have a gold membership that will last for another six months tho.

I thought this weekend was the breaking point fo my husband and I. things got really dirty and ugly. right now things are calm enough to be livable.

Halloween weekend was okay. I wanted to do more, but I got to se a lot of old friends, so that was good. Realised once again that the same handfull of poeple in my life seem to gang up against me to hurt me... damn, gotta do something about that...

Not sure where to go from here...

I feel myself sinking in...

No one knows what it's like

To be the bad man

To be the sad man

Behind blue eyes

And no one knows

What it's like to be hated

To be faded to telling only lies

[chorus]

But my dreams they aren't as empty

As my conscious seems to be

I have hours, only lonely

My love is vengeance

That's never free

No one knows what its like

To feel these feelings

Like i do, and i blame you!

No one bites back as hard

On their anger

None of my pain woe

Can show through

[chorus]

Discover l.i.m.p. say it [x4]

No one knows what its like

To be mistreated, to be defeated

Behind blue eyes

No one know how to say

That they're sorry and don't worry

I'm not telling lies

[chorus]

No one knows what its like

To be the bad man, to be the sad man

Behind blue eyes.

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