The day had endless possibilites, and the more time I spend sitting here, thinking about all that could be done, the more I waste the day.

Maybe since I'm a piece of shit, I'll just lay here and do nothing but drool on my pillow.

My husband and I had another heart to heart with the husband. I always wanted us to be civil and go our sepearate ways, and for us to still be friends. He's now agreeing to all of this and yet now I feel like I'm selfish. It's easy to be like-"uck you, I'm outta here" when the person is being an ass. But when he's bein the person i alwasy wanted him to be, I feel horrible. I feel like a clod heartless bitch.

Like why am I bein so selfish and not thinking of the kids and his feelings. My responsibilite is to the kids and him, and I'm thinking about myself next -- previous DISCLAIMER