things that make you "Hmmm...?"
on Monday, Jun. 02, 2003 at 1:19 a.m.

Startled by the sound of the phone at midnight, she hits mute on the remote. Before she can even think about who it might be, her husband jumps to answer it. He's only been home a few minutes, she assumed he wanted to relax. Glancing back at the T.V., she listens for a minute, not knowing if it is "Auntie" needing a ride, or someone else. "What's Jason doing?' she heard him say to the caller. *thinks ohh my sister-in-law*, she turns back to the T.V. to watch. Innocently thing that her sister-in-law didn't call earlier even though she knew Nichole was home. After a few minutes she hears him gigly in the kitchen, still on the phone. *Hits mute again* Hearing the silence from the living room, he begins to talk lower,almost mumbling.

(um...stil in livng romm..

*still mumbling *

"watching some movie"

*awkward rustle*

"Yea, yeah, hold on..."

He walks in the room, nonchalant holding out the phone and saying loudly, Do you wanna talk, it's celeste?"

She stares at him wanting him to know that she is aware that something strange is going on, but he completely misses it and says, "What? Don't feel like talking?"

She grabbed the phone annoyed, knowing it would be wrong to prematurely accuse. So instead, she decides it's "artificial sweetener" time.

Conversation went on like Celeste at first was struggling to make conversation. Talking about things that Celeste was normally bored with Hearing NIchole talk about them, but instead tonight, asking questions about these things like she was really interested.

Nichole stayed calm and kosher, acting like her and Celeste were best buds. Meanwhile, the whole time playing all the scenarios in her head of the times celste insisted that they were best friends. "You know you miss me, and you know you don't want to stop being friends. Let's never fight again" Celeste would say. Remembering the times Celeste would try to seduce her when noone was looking. She can hear her talking on the phone, and yet nicholes mind wanders more, to all the times Celeste talked about how much she hated Nichole's husband. And celeste always made a point to bring it up. Now thinking more about all the rumors of the two of them hugging each other in the halls when they were in high school together. His voice playing over and over again in her head, "I bet you Celeste sucks some good cock, as big as her mouth and lips are." The feeling of shock from those out-of-character words, and embarressment and shame flooding over her body and mind again.

"well, since you don't feel like doing anything toinight I'll let you go.

Celeste's tone of voice allowed Nichole to know that celeste was aware of Nichole's awareness, and her attempts to Cover things over smoothely, didn't work.

"Ok, tlak to you later."

Bye"

Staring at her husband's side profile as he ate his snack, her mind again wandered to all the mental files of Celeste's forward attempts to corner NIchole. Was she doing the same to her husband? Was Celeste trying that just to misdirect the attention from what she quite possibly be doing with ehr husband, or wnating to do with her husband? Or did shw want them both?

What about him? Is he guilty. She Knows he would love revenge, and he's picked up every other character from his mother. Why wouldn't he have inherited the whore gene?

From suspicion to anger , to sadness she rides. "Was it because she's thinner than me. What if I had never gained that weight," she thinks. " What should I do? There's no Jckie Kennedy here. I'm so sick of him, so ready for new, maybe I should just sit back and let it implode. If I rush in screaming and yelling before the horse is out the barn, I'm just gonna look stupid and be considored an over jealous crazy wife. But wouldn't doing that look as if I was just trying to shut the gate, before the horse got out? "

her acquried at a young age, female wisdom rose up in her mind like a flare.

"No dammit, because if the horse is going to escape, he'll figure a way to do it even if the gate has been shut."

Now hurt, just by the thought of all of this, she wrestles with how she is going to act like nothing is going on, even though she knows, and is hurt. Her reaction to everything concerning their disagreements, is to let him know how much she is hurt so he can feel guilty. How would she deal with it this time.... next -- previous DISCLAIMER

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