This snow is giving me the break I need. The kids are off school, and I'm hardly on the schedule at work this week. No schedules, or regimes, just like I prefer. Now running on Nikkie time!
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I thought I was going to live my life alone
in darkness and seclusion...yeah, you know
I've been out here trying to mix with these animals
and it just left me full of humiliated confusion
so I stagger back home and wait for nothing
but the solitary confinement of my room
spits me back onto the streets
and now I'm desperate and in need of human contact
and then I meet you and my whole world changes....
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I have always been a very standoffish person, and have never been good with others touching me -it just weirds me out . Lack of physical contact I think plays a very important part in a human beings emotional state. My physical contact has been very limited espcially lately. I'm too selective.
There was a program once where they took undernourished, orphaned babys and allowed lonely old ladies (who had been forgotten about in nursing homes) spend time with them every day, rocking them, and loving them. The babies (most who were drug addicted since birth, abandoned, sick or pre-mature) had a higher survival rate than those of the sick babies that hadn't spent time with the elderly ladies. Also, many of the women ended up living longer than the women in the nursing home who hadn't participated in the program.
Now that I think about it, love, sex, physical contact and emotional bonding is a necessity. One that is up there with food and shelter. We can't deny ourselves or other people of this, or only a slow death is imminent.
I sit and think about the people that I wish I could hold and be near, and I can't0- for varied reasons. I think about how just having them hold me would be more beautiful than poetic words, and would heal all the wounds of my soul. I long for that...for them...
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We walk the narrow path
Beneath the smoking skies
Sometimes you can barely tell the difference
Between darkness and light
Do we have faith in what we believe?
The truest test is when we cannot-
we cannot see
I hear pounding feet in the streets below
And the women crying and the children know
That there's something wrong
It's hard to believe that love will prevail
It won't rain all the time
The sky won't fall forever
And though the night seems long
Your tears won't fall forever
When I'm lonely I lie awake at night
And I wish you were here, I miss you
Can you tell me
Is there something more to believe in?
Or is this all there is?
And the pounding feet in the streets below
And a window breaks and a woman falls
There's something wrong
It's hard to believe that love will prevail
It won't rain all the time...
Last night I had a dream
You came into my room
You took me into your arms
Whispering and kissing me
And telling me to still believe
(Within the emptiness of
The burning cities against which
We set our darkest of selves)
Until finally I felt safe and warm
I fell asleep in your arms
And when I awoke I cried again
For you were gone
Can you hear me?
It won't rain all the time...
Jane Siberry - It Can't Rain All The Time Lyrics
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WE'RE NOT GONNA MAKE IT ARE WE-US HUMANS I MEAN (jon conner)
"IT'S YOUR NATURE TO DESTROY YOURSELFS"
THE TERMINATOR
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