only 20.1 carbs for the day! woohoo! Ketosis here I come!
I watched my real mom try to avoid me...she didn't know I was watching her, she thought she snuck by unnoticed.
Is she wondering what I am doing? Does she miss me? Does she want to catch a secret glance of me? NO! I dare her to tell some sob story about how she really does love me, and wants to be a mother figure to me!
Bitch! I hope she suffers the pain of a thousand deaths.
Here is that good Charlotte song, I can't help it. I have to post it. It best describes how I feel about my real mom. I just switched the word "dad" with "mom"
I'M SERIOUSLY THINKING ABOUT MAILING HER A COPY OF IT.
Artist: Good Charlotte
Song: Emotionless
hey MOM
I�m writing to you
not to tell you, that I still hate you
just to ask you
how you feel ...
...and how we fell apart
...how this fell apart
are you happy out there in this great wide world?
do you think about your SONS?
do you miss your LITTLE GIRL?
when you lay your head down
how do you sleep at night?
do you even wonder if we�re all right?
but we�re all right
we�re all right
[chorus]
it�s been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren�t you there the nights that we cried
you broke my FATHER'S heart
you broke your children for life
it�s not ok,
but we�re all right
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those were just a long lost memory of mine
I spent so many years learning how to survive
now, I�m writing just to let you know that I�m still alive
the days I spent so cold, so hungry
were full of hate
I was so angry
those scars run deep inside this tattooed body
there�s things I�ll take, to my grave
but I�m okay
I�m okay
[chorus]
It�s been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren�t you there all the nights that we cried
you broke my FATHER�s heart
you broke your children for life
it�s not ok,
but we�re all right
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those were just a long lost memory of mine
now, I�m writing just to let you know that I�m still alive
yeah, I�m still alive
sometimes
I forgive
yeah and this time
I�ll admit
that I miss you, said I miss you
[chorus]
it�s been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren�t you there all the nights that we cried
you broke my mother�s heart
you broke your children for life
it�s not ok,
but we�re all right
i remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those were just a long lost memory of mine
now, i�m writing just to let you know that were still alive
and sometimes
i forgive
and this time
i�ll admit, that i miss you, miss you
hey mom
Normally when I would start thinking about her, or other things that were upsetting to me, I'd go do something to get my mind off of it. (like eat!)
So right now, Not only am I doing without a lot of my favorite foods, I am reminded that I am doing life without the love of my mother. Even my adopted mom makes me feel like she loves me when I am doing things the way she wants. I think she's dissapointed in me. Or, maybe it's just some messed up part in my brain that makes me think these things.
Damn, I need some donuts, or at least a drink.
damn... - Friday, Nov. 16, 2007
too tired - Thursday, Mar. 03, 2005
all over again - Tuesday, Mar. 01, 2005
complimentary head should =complimentary hi - Thursday, May. 27, 2004
what it's like to have to choose - Tuesday, May. 25, 2004