I feel totally unmotivated and uninspired, so I don't feel like adding a real update today. Sorry.

I would tell you about my birthday weekend out-but it was completely uneventful. Nothing bad happened, but nothing really good either. I got drunk, danced, ate, went home. the end.

You know how I know that I am going crazy?

Any MTV show will make me cry.

hold on... I think I hear the white coats coming to get me!

here are the lyrics to hurt, because I hurt my self just to see if I feel.

Hurt ;NIN

I hurt myself today

to see if I still feel

I focus on the pain

the only thing that's real

the needle tears a hole

the old familiar sting

try to kill it all away

but I remember everything

what have I become?

my sweetest friend

everyone I know goes away in the end

you could have it all

my empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt

I wear my crown of shit

on my liars chair

full of broken thoughts

I can not repair

beneath the stain of time

the feeling disappears

you are someone else

I am still right here

what have I become?

my sweetest friend

everyone I know goes away in the end

you could have it all

my empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt

if I could start again

a million miles away

I would keep myself

I would find a way next -- previous DISCLAIMER